Thing I wish I knew
° It’s a known fact you’ll always be cold. But not how cold. I can take a hot shower and lie under two blankets and still be cold to the bone.
° You’ll get weak. I’ve always been weak in my arms but right now I can’t even carry a chair without my muscles aching.
° My back hurts. All the time. My knees do too, I feel like I’ve aged 4 years in the span of 1.
° Don’t listen to sweetspo. You won’t look in the mirror at your goal weight and be skinny. You just won’t see it. I’ve lost 5kg and don’t see a difference.
° You won’t be proud when someone worries about your food. You will be defensive and angry and grumpy. You don’t want them to know.
° You’ll feel guilty. About eating too much and doing too little. But most of all keeping a huge secret from anyone who cares about you.
° You can’t concentrate on anything else than food.
° Are you depressed and anxious??? Great! It’ll increase.
° It won’t ever be enough.
° I can’t stop. I can’t.
° You’ll freak out about fun things. About normal things. Christmas, eating dinner with friends, going out.
° Please get help if you can. Please get out while you can. This is not a friend of yours.